“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.” - Buddha
Two of the biggest lessons my mother taught me. One, to love myself deeper than I love anybody else, because you cannot truly love anybody else unless you love yourself. And second, to walk with confidence, gaze forward, shoulders back, she taught me how to own a room. Regardless of how I'm feeling... and, well, when your mom looks like a sex kitten, she can definitely teach you how to walk.
She also taught me it's better to be pissed off, than pissed on, not sure this is relevant, but it makes me smile.
How does my hot mom translate to yoga?
I'm an introvert. I know, all you people who know me are instantly going to call me a liar. But, I get shy in crowds, I recharge during alone time, I am TERRIFIED of public speaking, and also more terrified of making mistakes in front of a bunch of people. I haven't taught to an audience since I ran swim lessons... guys, my students were babies. I taught the parent kid lessons, so they only judged me if I didn't know how to blow bubbles properly. I'm an excellent bubble blower. #thatsgoingonmyresume
My first few yoga teacher training classes I was scared to use my voice. Have you ever read from a book, to an audience, in sanskrit? Guys, it's really intimidating, try coming upon text that reads "anjaneyasana" or "adho mukha svanasana." No really, MacBook Air, I'm not trying to say ado much savannah. So, I was scared to use my voice, because I was scared I wouldn't be able to pronounce a word. Or, I was scared to use my voice because, surely if I'm guiding somebody through sun salutations I was going to sound like I have no idea what I'm doing.
I say it all the time, "fear is a liar." And it couldn't be any more true. Every mistake, rather, every opportunity I had for growth was received with encouragement and love and light. And so, I'm faking it, and someday I'll make it. We ran through a crescent lunge series on Wednesday, and we were asked to give our OMie (OM, get it, hommie, OMie, I didn't create this, but I'm using it) a glow and a grow. My OMie, she told me that she loved my confidence. I hugged her so tight, because I don't feel confident.
So mom... thanks for teaching me to walk with my head held high, I know that you weren't just talking about the way I walk, but you were talking about living my life with confidence. And I have to believe this is going to translate and make me a better teacher.
I've wandered from my original topic, which is food. Guys, I found out i'm allergic to PORK this week. So, another food item bites the dust. Fortunately, none of my weekly menu involved swine.
What am I eating this week?
- Spicy shrimp with roasted green beans & broccoli
- Chicken "spaghetti" (spaghetti squash) with a vegan arugula cream sauce
- Sweet potato chili - this is my recipe share for the week
Crockpot Sweet Potato Chili
- 2.5 lbs roast
- 3 bell peppers - red, orange, yellow, for a full color profile
- 3 sweet potatoes
- 6-8 cloves of garlic
- 1 onion
- 5 fresh jalapeños *to taste, I like my food to burn my taste buds, you might not like the same experience with your food
- 2 cans of diced tomatoes
- 2 cans green chilies
- 1/4 cup coconut oil
Here's what you do:
- Dice your garlic, onion, jalapeños, and bell peppers
- Heat coconut oil on medium heat and toss in veggies
- While your veggies are softening up, peel the sweet potatoes and dice, throw them in the bottom of a crockpot - top the potatoes with chilies and tomatoes
- Slice the roast into cubes, I don't trim the fat - I feel it brings extra flavor to the dish.
- When your onions are translucent throw them into the crockpot, do not rinse the pan
- Brown your roast cubes
- Throw the roast into the crockpot
- Cook on low for 8 hours
This makes roughly six servings.